"I hide behind a smile,
i try not to cry but after a while, i give in, i lose my strength, my laugh is fake, i’m just waiting.
For someone to realize i am a human, i have feelings, that i’m tired of being alone, i’m tired of feeling invisible, i cant handle everything i’m not invincible, i’m not able to show all my emotions, only small portions,
‘how are you, are you alright?’
i wont fight
i wont bite
but i’m not alright.
I’m tired and alone;
feeling like a ghost,
for someone who is using
I’m just waiting,
waiting for you to realize i love you,
no matter how many times i say,
‘i hate you’ because at the end of the day
you are on my mind night and day
i dream you’ll pay
those words to me.
Please, please, please
say it make me smile
for real, just for a little while
be the reason.
The reason i care
but its not fair
if you don’t share
i wish and wish, i could call you mine, but
it kills me
because i’m not good enough, right?
Its not fair
and i’m not leaving without a fight,
i know its not right
and i know all i’ll gain is pain, its all over for me.
But it will be okay
because now i’m free,
i’m gone and i can see,